I am pissed off at how I work. no information is forwarded to me, I just simply react on everything that I feel, not even registering what kind of feelings it may be. I want to punch myself in the face, I am so sickenly aggrivated. how do I stand being pushed under the subconcious all the time. uncertainty is flowing through my whole being. exept for the evil part that is in charge.
if I get angry enough, will the blocks go away, and will I then reach the core?

I will kick your butt. you fuckin freak. I will watch you. you will not get any sleep until you die. you will be so dead.